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to make a long story short. i live in a family where the parents have been TRYING to divorce for the last 4 years but didn't because of the money that would have to be given to the mom. My dad hits me when he gets mad.. its not a pretty picture.

this has been really getting to me in 3rd grade. i moved into a WHOLE different country and attended private school (which is entirely dif from public school) and i remember getting sick ALL the time. I usually had stomachaches and DREADED going to school.

through the years, it turned into stomach sickness to depression. i don't even know if i'm really in depression. i have thought about suiciding a LOT of times. but theres something inside me that holds back everytime i try to.. i usually get confused by myself. i have 2 (me's) a happy joking around girl in school. and a depressed person at home. i hide this from my family by always making jokes or laughing..

but it seems like its getting worse. and i dont want to be sad and depressed all the time, i think in the next few months i might even suicide. I can’t concentrate in school and my grades in school are horrible. I think this is effecting my grades, my life, my mind. So in ur opinion, do you think I’m undergoing depression?

i also tend to give up easily and not care about anything anymore..

I think your just an everyday average kid.